Doubt that possibility because of fear. Because of afraid to lose it. because you plan to settle for last. 
And it says, I don't have the courage to take the risk. That's because risk is higher than reward (business principle) :(


and i couldn't agree more.when you open your heart up...

YOU MIGHT THINK that you're really really reeeeally BUSY and out of breath at times. "yea, i'm very busy, no time sleep lah." or "i didn't sleep last night, too many things to do :(" or "i'm not going to bed tonight until i finish up my stuff " and the worst: "aiya, must complete this la, due tomorrow T^T "

Especially when you have countless of deadlines and responsibilities in your hands. and especially when your to-do-list drags for a page full and more and more and more. and not to mention after you have just thrown away a few major events that you organized for this year and you're finally sitting down to take your breath. and then you realized: finals is just 3 weeks away! so.

Seriously. it's all time management. so many "stuff" or "things" to do meh!? see, you're here, reading my senseless blog instead of doing your first thing on your to-do-list. perhaps if you have not went and scroll down endlessly in Facebook, or, if you have not took for granted a few minutes which become hours to read novels, perhaps then you might have cancelled out a page of to-do-list by now. so, my dear munster, at the end of the day, it all comes to time management.

Organize your stuff well. Manage your time properly. Then you'll find out that you're not that busy afterall ;)

and oh, this leads to sharing the songs that I play in loop for the past few days. and now. wink wink ;)


Drenched by 曲婉婷 ; Waiting for Superman by Daughtry ; 不哭了 by By2 ; 泡沫 by 邓紫棋 ;  孤獨是一種安全感 by 杨丞琳

Before i get busy. a mini promise to myself: i shall not say something like this anymore -

"i'll sleep early and wake up early tomorrow to complete my stuffs"

Never happen. too busy making excuses.

PLEASE DON'T. MEAN IT WHEN YOU SAY IT K.

#kthxbye

You were here, staring at the mirror. Reflecting. The reason you are doing this. The things you've been through. The way you want to change things. That changes around you.

Your hair pulled back into a tight knot.
Your frown more than your smile.
Your table full of endless tasks and notes.
Your priority more biased than ever.
Your friends can't spend much time with you.
You are out of breath before you knew.

Your judgement, tainted.
Your predicament, piled.
Your promises, overvalued.
Your commitment, wild.
Your studies, neglected.

Has your nose grow longer?
Has your cheek master the skill of silent calm?
Has your eyes learn to see the shades hidden under people's mask?
Has your ears choose to listen to whispers coming from the other side of the wall?

And then you realized, you have changed. You learn; You laugh; You longed; You live. It's worth it.

Right?

4.25am. Friday. KL LCCT Airport - McDonald. Surrounded by loud people, check. Charging laptop next to a pole while my friends sleep in their arms on a table, checked. Pissed with uneducated-selfish-arrogant-assholes-who-think-they-own-the-place, so checked.

What brings me here at this time?

Well, I was having my holidays in Langkawi Island  with my university friends for this whole week. Today is actually my last day on the island and my friends and I happened to hop on the last plane and now I am typing discreetly so that the keyboard-tapping-sound is at minimum level ;) I am waiting to board my flight back to Penang at 7.15am. Since I have the whole night and a lappie, I thought I should write something so that the time can passed quickly and fingers cross, I really hope I won't fall asleep...

Where were I?

First and foremost, my sincere-est apologies for not updating my blog regularly for the past few months. Life, has decided to play B.U.S.Y and B.I.T.C.H.Y with me :( Now let me try to put these whole chronicle of unfortunate events as simple as possible.

Late June - Sabah Trip happened; (1) got stung by stonefish while snorkeling on a small island; (2) moved out from the island on a very embarrassing stretcher and a huge on-looking-crowd - paid an extra sum of RM150 for the injection treatment in consequence; (3) in fact, started to become allergic to alcohol because of the sting, dayum!; (4) managed to get all 3 zips (of pencil box, fave high waist pants & jeans) spoil; (5) hand luggage bag overweight, busted - need to send over to campus via parcel delivery service - another RM1XX lost.

HAHA and it all happened in a short 8 days trip, can you believe it. But luckily, there's always family and friends who lend me their hands in time like these. That's why I'm still here aren't I? :)

ps: I actually thinks this is a test ;) according to the chinese belief (and my belief), my second half year are supposed to be like this, hmmmmm...

Then what keeps me so busy?

Academics. Non academic activities. Responsibilities. Keponess. The tendency of saying yes to practically everything. Expectations. Friends. Plans. And finally, excuses.

Will I update regularly from now onwards?
I'll say yes ;)

STAY TUNED, for real this time.