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Reflection

5/22/2012 12:53:00 AM

Taken in Miri Esplanade Beach @ 19/5

Before i start writing this post, i actually browsed through all the photos taken so far in this month. If you're curious about the quantity, it's 967 and no this is not a random number. I even used a calculator to get the number right. Haha vain. Anyway. the past weekends might just be an ordinary one (ordinary = assignments and quizzes and wasting time) if i didn't sign up for this AIESEC LDS seminar - a conference between UKM and Curtin students. Games, talks, lectures, persuasion, dances and new friends. Three days and it changes my perception in life. It made me reflect on what i am today.

What I lack of? Confidence. I always tend to avoid eye contact whenever i'm speaking to a crowd. I'll be that girl who will stare at the ceiling and rap whatever blabbering stuff she's supposed to. And then hurriedly she'll bow and run away from the spotlight. She can't even get her head clear when she's facing the crowd; every sentence and word are scattered and disorganized, and believe me, it's unbearable.

So, there is this sharing session where people volunteer to go up the stage and umm, practically, share. 1, 2, 3, 4... 9. The outspoken one, the hyper girl, the lyke-a-boss brother, the loud feilou, the chio girl. One by one they share what they've learn in the conference and finally they are telling me, this is your last chance. You opportunity. Your platform. I took a deep breath and raised my hand high in a speed of light. I think i even closed my eyes. And sprained my arm. But anyway, turns out, i am the last person going up there and talk.

Why i am sharing this is because i wanna tell you that with this simple act, I have gain the courage to change. Change but be the same you. I was hesitant at first, but seeing sooo many people have done that, i am like, why not? All these time, how narrow minded i am for thinking that i simply don't like being the center of attention and so i avoid stages and refuse to stand up and voice out. I was rather judgmental for also thinking those who opt for the limelight are attention seeker. Ironically, I also take them as the bravado for their humongous guts. I am wrong.

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something in your life.

Winston Churchill (1874 - 1965)

It takes a lot of effort and guts to be the first one to stand up. That person is the leader. But the leader needs to be easy to follow and must not back down in whatever circumstances. Then there will be the first follower. The first follower leads the second and the second leads the third. Without you realizing, everybody is in fact, the leader. It might be awkward at first, being the 'weirdo' and doing something people are not, but once everybody joins in, it won't be. The key is don't ever change yourself to fit in. Be you.

And so, that's practically what I had summed up from the seminar. Here's a video (link) they shared. It really inspires me.

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Never underestimate yourself. Your will is your strongest weapon.

I am learning. Final is 2 weeks away and I'll start by not repeating my last minute tragedy again. Cheers. By the way, the 3/967 pictures above are unrelated to this statement. Teehee. I'll be back with hot guys soon.

PS: Why the ladies nowadays keep demanding hawt guys. Why. Y U NO APPEAR IN MY LIFE. #vain

I don't know why I always write long essay

5/04/2012 11:48:00 PM

So, I don't know why but recently, people around me keep updating their blog, for WHICH, makes me feel the heat and pressure of not updating your blog as regularly as them. So, i biatchyly decided to write a not short not long paragraphs of words in order to make myself feel better.

Anyway. You know, I always label my albums in my lappie by month name + description. For example: January Joy, February Fab, March March!, April Already and so on. And guess what. This month my album is actually named as May Mayhem. Yeahhh, i know i'm so creative right, but save your praise just yet, that's not the point. The point is, why university life so hectic...

Deadlines, weekly submission, presentations, group report, individual reports, lab reports and more coming soon. You practically stick to your chair nearly all day except when you're heading to lectures and events. True story. Ugh, worse than secondary school. In the first place, I wonder who spread the rumor saying university life is like honey moon during my high school years. Obviously it's a big fat lie. :(

This is my room, 306.

The state of condition in the picture above does not even come close to the actual state it is in right now.

And my room OMG! No comment. And my piling laundry. Seriously no comment. And my white tiled floor which is full of strand of hairs. Better no comment. And my table OMGAGAA. Can't even comment. And my foods and titbits and bags of food. Comment: Shouldn't put so near my table, keep grabbing them whenever I got the chance, ish! Which, made me fatter by 1kg in 2 weeks time. Digitally proven by the weighing scale of my new roomie. That means no exercise, only more fat and lazy bones ugh.

I'm not complaining though. I'm just, procrastinating. For the sake of throwing words onto my blog. heh. More presentable you know. (whuteva that means) And I'm tired of writing formal language in my reports. "The Munsterina website is officially constructed in year 2011 following the latest trend of blogging from the younger generation these days." Imagine a news reporter voice from a radio; passive and monotone and *yawn. I can't talk like that for more than 3 minutes, which is bad, sigh. The more for me to worry about for my future position as a 'vice-leader' of the BOD and also yikes, my oral presentation.

Very excited. And looking forward. I mean just in the past few weeks I'd already dress up so many times for different events that i think i'm not so shy with skirts and dresses anymore. anyway, here's a sneak peak of what I'm gonna wear. If you're curious of course ;)

The top is bought recently in Parkson. And the shoe, oh the shoeeee, the heels is short enough for tall people like me, so yep, no complaint. Thank you apa! :D The pencil skirt is bought in Singapore just last December. Sui bo? If only i can wear my cons which are expiring in June 2012. *beechslap. Waste money. :(

On a side note, I'm also very the excited about tomorrow. Guess what guess what guess what! Ella from SHE is getting married tomorrow. Sob, so happy for her. And i thought she'll be forever alone (sorry!), guess it's just me. Anyway, can't wait for the videos and more SHE appearance and the coming album already! And that's why i want to take this opportunity and put up their beautiful pics here. I mean, beautiful pic (singular).

S.H.E @ 2010

I'll try not to write so much next time. Pictures, pictures. And more gorgeous guys next time, promise. Might be talking about Avengers afterall, since it's the hyped ;) besides, i so have something to share, if i still remember the details until then of course. Regarding the boys, and a little bit of a girl. So summary?